I am tired. My eyes are aching and my emotions low.
I’m unsure if this has gone too far. I no longer know if she should be having this experience. Her happiness seems transient and if something or someone else could bring that to her, I couldn’t stop that happening. I’d hate myself for trying and I suspect it might become contagious.
In a month she could be settled. In a month she could be continuing, slowly losing thoughts of me. So if this is to fail, should it be when she has the best chance of meeting someone new – someone completely different who can give her that chance? Not a nice thought but an equally selfish one.
I’m unsure I’m strong enough to make that decision too. I still love her to bits.
I want this to work.
As I wrote before and never posted; I think this young thing needs a reprise.